It is official!!

We just reserved our Uhaul. We are packing it up on Thurs. We are leaving very early on Friday.
I said "Good bye" to my friend Kristin today. I had tears in my eyes, as she cried. But, I didn't want to cry. It's not a real 'good-bye' afterall. It just stings.

I wanted to tell her...It is better to say 'good-bye' and cry it out...than having stayed mad at one another, and not even getting a hug.

That would have hurt more.
At least, we made up...and made the best of it...

I am going to miss our weekly Thursday dinners. Thinking about it, really sinks in. I am going to be here this Thursday...but she won't be coming over. It'll be an empty house. We'll still be here, but, we'll be sleeping early.

Boo. This is really sinking in.

I even hugged my friend Jenn, but I didn't cry. I told myself I would see her again before leaving, but now, I don't really think I am. My god.

Ok. I can't do this anymore.
I've already had to say good bye to friends, when we moved away from Santa Barbara. I never thought I'd make such wonderful friends, ever...especially in Vegas. And now, I get to leave them. Only thing, I know in my heart that we never want to come back to live here. Santa Barbara is where my heart belongs.

My daughters will have a better lifestyle in SB.
It is home.

California is my heart.